Dixie Ann German

Today, September 7,2011 is my sister Dixie birthday!!! She is not only my sister she truly is my best friend. No one or nothing can come between that bond my sister and I have! I wanted to write a blog today about her to honor her on her special day.

It seems like just yesterday we would have the summer to waste away and do nothing. Mom had to work during the day so I was home alone with Dixie. We had to find something to pass the time away. Normally that was video taping each other singing and doing "concerts", playing school normally I was the teacher because I was older lol or playing house.

Playing "house" was one of our favorite things to do! I would be married to Chris (from NSYNC) and she would be married to Lance (also from NSYNC). We had dolls we would play with as if they were our kids. lol and it was too much fun!

As we got older and started moving around some we stopped playing house or teacher but we still spent tons of time together. It didn't matter what we were doing as long as me and Dixie and mamma were together.

Dixie has truly brought me through somethings that she doesn't even know she has. When my parents were getting a divorce I knew I had to stay strong (even thought sometimes I failed)  i had to stay Strong because she was looking up to me. After all I was the big sister! I have tried to set the best example I can for her because I want her to be the best she can be.... and that makes me want to be the best I can be!

I am so proud of her and the young lady she has become! She is smart, kind(sometimes), and loves going to church!!! She loves her youth group!!! She is also always there to make me laugh! I started thinking about memories today and cried because we are getting older and I wanna go back to the "dance and sing in our under ware days" but we cant.... so I just pray that we don't lose the bond that we have. (and the amazing bond we have with our mamma) No one will be able to brake that relationship between me, Dixie and mamma!

So I leave with this......

Happy Birthday Dixie! I love you and never settle for less than you deserve!!!!!! =)


(Here is some pictures.... Enjoy! )

Happy 17th Birthday Dixie! =)

Sooner or later....

Hey Ya'll! I first want to think everyone for reading my blog. It really means alot to me!
    Today I want to blog about my college life. Sooner or later... I'm going to get it together! As I said in the last blog I have been on the waiting list for the Dental Program since November. Well yesterday I got some upsetting news! I got an email saying that I was not able to be accepted into the program this time around. It also said that I will be on the waiting list (still) and it would be until August 2012 until I got in!!! OMG a whole nother year... now what...
    So I as soon as I could I went to the Advisment office to see what I could do (or if there was anything I could do). We talked for about 30 mintues and weighted all of my options (which were not very many). We finally decided that I had three options.
     "option 1"- wait until August 2012
     "option 2"- switch programs
     "option 3"- Give up!!

Well I know I didn't want to do option 3! That was out of the question. Thats one thing my momma has taught me is NEVER GIVE UP! Keep at it. So I really didnt want to do option 1 either. I just really felt like it wasnt Gods will to be in the Dental Program. So they only option I had was option #2! So now the question was what major do I switch to?

    So this was where the hard decision came in! At this point I have had so many set backs (because of me just not caring) that it the decision was very hard. But I didnt have to make it alone.... I had God on my side and my Momma! Although at this point I felt like I had disappointed her yet again she was there and gave me the support I needed. God never failed me either! So here I am sitting in the Advisors office not really knowing what to do and I get a text message from a friend and all it said is God loves you and has a plan for you. Right then I knew everything would be just fine.
   Ok ok so your probably like get on with it tell me what you decided right... Well my advisor and I came up with a solution. I will be taking Summer classes to get a Cirtficate in Technology. This will last until the Winter quarter (which starts in January) In January I will be enrolled in the Pharmacy Tech program. I enrolled in the Technlogy program because Pharmacy doesnt accept new students until the Winter and I did not want to sit out Summer and Fall quarter! So there it is. I looked at the Catologe at all the programs of study before I went in there and I had Pharmacy Tech at the top of the list but didnt think I would be able to get in that program. But God made a way!
  
     So now can you see why I titled this blog sooner or later.... Because Sooner or Later and with a lot of  prayer I will get my act together!

Thank You guys for reading my blog.

Never Settle for anything less than you deserve!!!


Love,
Naomi =)

Since October....

Hey Y'all! I'm back! I have not blogged in awhile becasue I didnt have any good topics then I forgot my password lol
       So I want to bring all my readers up to speed on whats been happening in my life since last October when I last blogged!
       First let me say that God is really Great and I am blessed! I now have a job part-time, go to classes full time, and im involved in church!
       Okay so... me start with school. I am currently at Augusta Tech and I am taking my core classes now but I am waiting to be acceptd in to the Dental Assisting Program. I have been on the waiting list since last November and Im starting to grow impatient! I talked with the Advisor and she said that I am at the top of the list (finally) and should be accepted this Fall. Until then I pray that I get accepted because I do not want to sit out another quarter while I wait!
       Work.... I got a job a clothing store in the Augusta Mall. I have been there since November. Although I dont always love it, it is a job and it does pay my bills. Thats all im going to say about that =)
       Church... I LOVE IT. I love going and spending time with my church family. I have tried many churches and they were all great but none of them were HOME and I am so glad that God finally brought us back home. I am a teacher of Sunday School and they are the best group of kids ever. Im so sad that my whole class is moving up to the youth this August! I went on a Youth Camping Trip this weekend and I couldn't help but think about what great men and women they are turning into and Im so excited to watch them grow!
         Friends.... Over the past few weeks I have reconnected with one of my best friends from High school and I love it. God really knows what he is doing... I say that because she loves the lord and when I get down she is always there to pick me up and she prays for me like no other. Love you Lacy! also .... ashley is getting MARRIED. =) AHHHH im so excited! I cant wait till the wedding actually gets closer and we have the bridal shower and everything it is going to be wondeful!
         Family.... my mom and sister are wonderful. I dont know what I would do without them. I say that all the time but really I would be lost without them. We are actually going to the Beach this summer. The first family vacation since my parents go divorced (minus Helen for a night) so that would be 7 ago. So we deserve it. We are going to St. Augustine and the hotel that we are staying in is right on the beach. Our room is on the bottom floor and it is right on the beach... LOVE IT! I cant wait to go and spend time with the ones that I love the most!!! I cant wait to just get away from this town! =)
         Well thats it for now. Now that I know my password you can expect many more blogs from me!!!

Thanks for reading my blog!
** Never Settle for anything less than you deserve**

Love,
Naomi

I am not a LOSER! .... GODS got this!!!

So once again I would like to thank everyone for "Keeping up with Naomi"! It does really mean alot to me. =)

Today I thought I would talk about a few things that has been bothering me lately. I have talked to one person about this but not really anyone else, so here it goes....
For a while now I have been feeling that I am a real loser! (now don't judge me, just hear me out) I was thinking and feeling like I was a loser for many reasons. Some reasons are just to silly to put on here but here are some that I have struggled with for awhile now... (When I say awhile I mean a couple of months lol)
Reasons:
- Having little to no friends
- Not having a boyfriend
- Seems like I am going nowhere in life!
- I'm not good enough

"Having little to no friends", I have never really had many friends and I think that it is mostly my fault that I don't have alot of friends. I have what you would call "convenient friends". They only want to be my friend or hang out with me on there time. It makes me mad when I always make plans to do something and they never happen. It's like they are to good to hang out with me.
"Not having a Boyfriend", now I know that you don't need a man to be happy and I understand that. But sometimes I want one. It's like I see people all the time at the movies or even at church and they have someone they can talk to and connect on a personal level like that and I want that. But with that said I don't think I should put aside what I want to have a boyfriend. Guys today are after one thing and it is ridiculous. I don't understand how guys want to get that one thing but not want to be in relationship with them. Do you understand it? If you do .... please let me know! I guess what I am trying to say about that is it just makes me feel like I am not good enough. Like no guy wants me....
" Seems like I am going nowhere in life", when I say this it is meaning in general. I feel like people that I went to school with have all moved on and is doing there own thing and I am the same Naomi as I was in High School like I haven't changed at all.
" I'm not good enough", I started feeling like this when I was asked to teach Sunday school at my church. Why did they ask me??? What do I have to offer these children? I don't know everything about the Bible who am I to teach someone else about it? Those are some of the questions that I kept asking myself. I didn't feel like I was good enough. I was mostly scared I would fail as their teacher! I felt like they wouldn't listen to me and that I would just be laughed right out of the church by the children and the parents. ( OK! so I bet you are thinking that I am crazy.... keep reading) I just felt like I wasn't good enough!!!


I want to make it clear that I don't feel like this anymore, its how I used to feel!... just keep reading! So now let me tell you how and what I think about all these things now!

" Having little to no friends", well I still don't have that many friends. But, I feel like God has been trying to show me that yes I do have one "true" friend (and her family!!) and he has given me a family that loves me! God has blessed me with a group of women that will always be there for me and who needs friends with family like that? My mom, sister, Memaw, and Aunt are amazing! I know anytime I need them they will be there. And I think God is really working in my relationship with my Memaw.... before this year I would only see her once in a while and now I see her all the time. I donut know if she knows how much it meant to me to go to a concert with her... (just me and her) I will never forget that!

"Not having a boyfriend, many people have posted on my facebook they exact thing that I am about to say. God has a plan. He knows who the right person is and he will send them my way. By being turned down (for lack of a better word) he is saving me the heartache. Never question God... he knows what he is doing... that is all I'm going to say about that!

"Not being good enough", my thoughts on that was it was pure Satan talking then! I mean think about it.... I thought I would not be good enough and that the parents and children would laugh me out of the church.... Satan! I will say that I am learning each time I go in that Sunday School room. They challenge me and I love it. I have the best group of kids! I truly enjoy it and this may be backwards but they have taught me so much more than I ever knew! They have made me want to be better (not that I was horrible to begin with but I was human and did make mistakes)!

I went from thinking I was a Loser and feeling really down about myself to saying you know what Gods got this! Trust him!!! Don't worry about things that you cannot change. Be the person you know God wants you to be and don't worry about what others think of you! I know I am not a LOSER!  It was just that I let Satan get in my head and allow him to control my thoughts!!!

Once again I would like to thank everyone very much for reading my blog! I ask you please don't judge me we all go through things in our life! Comments welcome just email me =)

*Never Settle for anything less that what you deserve!!!! *

Love,

Naomi =)

Dead Beat DAD!

Once again I would like to everyone for reading my blog. =) It means a lot to me!

     This blog I would like to talk about something that has been on my mind alot lately. That is Fathers not taking care of their children!

    First off I don't understand how someone can have children and not want anything to do with them. Or maybe have something to do with them when it is convenient for them. That is not how it works. Your children can not eat when it is convenient for you. Its not far to come in and out of the lives of your children when the time is right for you or something major happens like graduating High school!

    Another thing that makes me mad is not paying child support. I was reading online that 62% of custodial mothers do not receive child support! That is just ridiculous! It is ridiculous that they don't pay child support and there children suffer but the father wont suffer! ON HECK NO! Some fathers would rather there children go without than them and it is just plain sick! If you have children than you need to support them. If you are not going to support them.... STOP making them! Another thing that upset me is when people split up and remarry! Now that happens all the time and I am not saying anything bad about that, what I have a problem with is when they remarry and they treat their "stepchildren" better than they treat their own kids! I don't understand how someone can give the world to kids that are not even theirs and treat their own kids like they are nothing!

       This subject makes me more mad than anything. I think the reason that it does is because it hits so close to home! My father (if that is what you want to call him) doesn't take care of his children. You see he likes to think he does on his time. He calls us when he "thinks" about it. I am so tired of being treated the way he does us and I am not going to stand for it anymore. Why not pay child support? Why take care of other peoples children and not your own? Why do you get to eat stakes every night and I have to sit and watch my mother worry about where we are going to get the money to eat on! It just doesn't seem right! I'm tired of it! Its not far and no life isn't far but its called RESPECT! You treat others the way you want to be treated! What if I decided to never talk to you again! How would you feel? What if you were in need of gas money or food or anything for that matter and I had money and would help you out AT ALL! How would you feel if you had to raise two kids on your pay check NO HELP AT ALL? Is that how you want to be treated? NO doesn't sound like the fairy tale life that your living in! Before I go I also want to say that it is wrong to steal from your children. And when you take away their trust of men, security, and money out of a birthday card that's called STEALING. What if I came and stole something of yours? How would you feel? I'm sure you would like it! So I think I better leave it at that before I get myself in trouble....

Once again thank you for reading my blog! I would like to say again that this is MY blog and I control it. What I write about is what is on my mind and heart at the time and no one elses. So keep the negative comments to yourself and if it hits home for you... oh well maybe you should man up and change something! =)

~Never Settle for less than what you Deserve!~

Love,

Naomi =)

Being Big is not Horrible!!!

First off I would like to thank everyone for reading my blog!
 I also would like to address something that has been bothering me.... If you are reading my blog just to criticize me just stop right now. I don't need you picking at everything I say in my blog. These are my blogs and I have the option to talk about anything I want, just like you have the option not to read it!

   Being Big is not horrible!!! I just want to put that out there. There are women (and men but this is for women) of all sizes in the world and everyone of them are beautiful. I think now a days in the media it gives the impression to women that they should be a size 2 and have a huge butt and huge boobs, but that is not the case at all! Today there are shows like the Biggest Loser and I feel some people take that is meaning everyone should be a certain weight. But I feel that show is only trying to stress being Healthy! And you can still be Healthy and not be super skinny!
  I got the idea to write this blog while I was watching the Tyra Banks show.  In this episode, there were two women talking about eating a "tapeworm" to lose weight. A TAPEWORM.  There was also a doctor on the show saying that the tapeworm can actually eat you alive. When asked why they would even think about eating a tapeworm to lose weight their answers were almost the same. "I want to be skinny, I'm tired of always being the FAT one"! It sadden me to know that someone can feel so low and hate themselves so much that they would ingest a tapeworm to become skinny. This is not okay.
    I can relate to how many young girls may feel and want to try different ways to weight lose. I have been big all my life and it  can be hard sometimes. I can remember in school wanting so bad to have the clothes of the popular and skinny... but the thing was they don't make clothes like that in plus size. I used to get picked on so bad because I had a bigger chest then they all did. Things like that will do wonders on your self esteem.
   For those of you who don't know me I am a bigger women! I am not a size 2 and I feel beautiful! I may not have the "perfect figure" but who are they to tell you what the perfect figure is? You just have to have confidence and if people don't like you than it says something about their character.
    Everyone is different and Everyone is beautiful! Never let someone tell you your not beautiful.


Beauty comes in all sizes, not just size 5.  ~Roseanne


Thank you guys for reading my blog! Never Settle for less than what you deserve!
Love,
Naomi =)

Scared to death!

First off I would like to say thank you for reading my blog. =)
       Yesterday morning I woke up to find my precious Kingston very very sick. He was unable to walk or stand on his back legs. So I carried him down the stairs and took him outside. When I put him down he whined. I didn't know what was going on and I was scared to death! So I started calling around to all the vets around town. I tired explaining to them that I didn't have a lot of money but he really needed to be seen and that I would make payments on it. NO ONE and I mean NO ONE would work with me. I couldn't believe it. In the meantime my Kingston is in pain and I am to watching him suffer. So I had a Math Exam that morning. I hope I did okay but my mind was on Kingston and to be honest I was hoping that he would still be alive when I got back home.
       When  I got out of the exam, my grandmother called and told me to take him to the vet and she would pay for it. I didn't want her to do that so I called one more vet. A vet in Hephzibah that my friend told me about Dr.Gradous. He was able to see Kingston asap and he wasn't going to charge that much. So my mom got off work and got my sister from school and we took Kingston to the vet. I was so scared. I had been reading things on the Internet and the symptoms that he was having was symptoms of Heart Worms, a Seizure, and Heart Attack. Man talking about Scared. Here's some advice. When something is wrong never seek the Internet for help. The "online" vet cant see him and they really don't know. So once we got to the vet I was told that Kingston has inflammation of his Spinal Cord. Which is a sign that he will have server back pain for the rest of his life. Which is common in smaller dogs. He also has asthma. That is the reason that he has trouble breathing and the reason his bark isn't as strong as others. Kingston will be put on medicine in the future for his back problems but for now he got a shot yesterday to numb the pain. It should last 5 days if in five days he is not better he will go back and be put on the medicine right away.
        Today Kingston seems to be doing so much better. He is walking with a limp but he is walking now. He is also playing with Jonas and acting more like his normal self. I was so scared yesterday. I cried all day. I truly thought that I was going to lose him. I have never been so scared. I am just so thankful for Dr.Gradous he was able to make my precious Kingston feel much better. I also am so thankful for him not charging so much and my mom was able to pay for it. I don't knew what I would have done without my mom yesterday. She helped me out more than ever. She was with me through all my crying yesterday lol =)  I am just so thankful that my Kingston is still with us. =) Thank you for reading my blog and thank you for all the prayers for my precious baby!

Love,

Naomi =)